A Journal of Illie's Creation

Would you choose water over wine? Hold the wheel and drive...

Wed, 07 Jan 2009 16:18:16 GMT

Well, yesterday I got my wisdom teeth out. It wasn't as bad as I thought it would be but it still hurts. I guess I called the dentist a sock full of marmalade? Yeah, whatever. I'm dizzy and I feel sick and I really don't know why I'm on the computer, probably because I'm not tired and I like to type to get my sadness out, I'm pretty damn upset right now. I wish I was at school. I want to talk to someone. I want hugs and I want to play trumpet and strange enough, I want to get giant headaches in math. I'm not going back until Monday though, and that's the week Idol starts up again. -le sigh- Just refer below to see the reason why I'm probably not going to watch it.
Worry. I don't want to get kicked out of any more groups. I'll try hard to post SOMETHING here, but I'm at the doctors a lot, because I'm sick with something they haven't been able to diagnose yet. How fun. At least I know it's not lupus or that thing I watched the documentary on where the girl had 300 pound legs. xD If I do get kicked out of more things I love, things that give me hope, I don't know what I'm going to do. Probably just use this spot for Bokey, because that's one thing that if I get kicked out of, I have bigger problems. xD I'll let my vicodin-laced mind take over at night and try and write something, maybe type a few things after I go to the hospital next and stuff. Thanks guys. Bye.

And I'm feeling so bad and so good, I don't know what to do.

Sat, 03 Jan 2009 17:14:09 GMT

I'm pissed. Not just slightly angry, not just plain angry, but REALLY angry. I've been at home all Christmas break with no one around except my mom and dad. None of my friends have called or wanted to hang out or anything, and it's making me really upset... Now we're probably moving again, to where, I don't know. But if none of my friends want to talk to me I'm assuming it's not a big deal. And I want to kick New Kid in the box, because she's being inconsiderate. Basically I'm just being emo and everything... it's not that bad, but I need to rant.

Because I have no life, I am going to post some poetry I've done... they range from grade six to grade nine. =] Also, I think I'm going to make my journal public again. I'll use this journal for my fandoms, and I'll use my alternate (heavenisonexx, friend it) for personal things. What do my very few friends think?

Blonde hair
blue eyes
echo in my mind
captivated
by your beauty.
I feel ugly
creepy
disgusting
next to you.
Rainbo
is what you call me
six ordinary colors of life
but you say
I'm an endless two way street
with many curves and throws.
Unordinary.
You say it's alright
but then it's the Yankees
and I want you to know.
We were gods.
Just you and I.
No Jim or Dan.
But it's been
different
since you knew.
Blonde hair,
blue eyes,
I want you in my arms.
I want you to know
and understand
and feel
the way I do
for you.
You are my Bucky.
I wish I could be
your Rainbo.

I wish I could fly.
The wind would be my pair of wings
the sky my canvas
the sun my pigment
I depict your bright eyes and warm smile
in the azure sky.
Threading light
through white clouds
I make a summer dress
and decorate the dream
with an ancient song.
Time stops ticking.
At this moment,
I'm with you.
I wish I could fly.

Mon, 02 Jun 2008 20:27:31 GMT

MY JOURNAL IS NOW FRIENDLOCKED.
Old entries with much in personal information are being deleted.
Thanks. :)